Beezarelee

These leaves Are always falling And sometimes I find myself Stopping myself From catching them

I'm falling Into these clouds And it's cold

There was a lady who wore a green beanie She knew how to break my heart And so I offered her water But I dared not look in her eyes For fear of seeing her broken smile Even so she thanked me And I closed the door feeling lighter Happy I kept face Once I made it home I began to cry In the dark Where secretes are easily kept For old ladies And striped orange summer dresses Who still continued to wear green beanies.

I have never ran, or burned beyond any safe haven, And your wit was lonely at times In lost ripped things Which in the end, forgot me. Because  I cannot return out of spite You're afraid   And you've striven Although I myself have finished You braved always strong by strong And myself? I acted. (And resurfaced, screaming because I loved) Her wispy memories And your wistfulness drowned me at times But I still remembered and stood Lost, and very much torn As the wonderful  fought The tainted forgot Always reaching Because nothing Which we are Blurred at the edges And it continues breaking when you're gone Your heart is hardened But

It is a naked sort of feeling When you're not around And I am colder than usual In this room of things that fall As the ceiling continues to drop My heart does not stop hurting Or keeps my eyes from seeing How empty this room is without you

I wrote our names in the sand And I wished for your happiness Wherever that may be. Because we were only kids And you always had to play the hero But it never stopped me from watching Always With a heavy hand over my heart And even when the ocean washed away, The evidence. I never stopped trying to touch the stars Even though you don't play hero anymore I still wait Under the milky white moon Hoping That once again You will return to my castle in the sand.

Butterflies make me anxious They are too unpredictable Kind of like you. Sometimes I think you'll land on my finger. But you continue to flutter In this beautiful way Close enough That it leaves me still hoping Even though sometimes I end up Farther from where I first started But I continue to chase after you With my heart as a net Open and waiting.